Is it in the physical?
Is it in the emotional?
Is it in the spiritual?
I feel as though the last several years of my life I have been looking for my home.
I hate to pull the "I am so different than everyone else" card but in all honesty I feel like I have always viewed people differently than most.
What I am trying to get at is that through my views of people and how they treat one another I have become sick. It kills me to actually see how we interact with eachother in certain situations. Not just guys. Not just girls. PEOPLE. I should be held accountable as well. The only place I have ever found peace is with the presence of God.
I fell away. I fell far away, and it kills me to actually see how I went down a path. It was a path i never even saw that I was going but through the slow and steady weight of it I somehow ended up there.
It took a lot to wake me up.
Way too much.
I am ready to continue my life now. I don't want any of that to be a part of my life anymore and I am ready to love my life for what it is. I have such an amazing group of friends and the best support system ever.
I just want to be able to wake up everyday and know that I am choosing the right.
Know that this is the way.
Luke 6:37
"Do not judge, and you will not be judged; do not condemn, and you will not be condemned; forgive, and you will be forgiven."
Home.
It can mean so many different things. For me it means for comfort. It means understanding with a steady mind on your shoulders, not just because it's the right thing to do.
I hope this reaches out to someone else; and even if it doesn't effect anyone, that the words just graze through a mind or two when the time comes, because we all have that time.
Only hopes.
much love to all,
sham.
